There's a level of insanity that you don't quite have a full grasp upon before you have children. Even before they're born, and still snuggling and kicking around deep in your body, you think you're going to have a grasp on what it will be like, but it's just not able to prepare you.
Through this chaos, probably just another word we can call "life", there are moments when we'd prefer to crawl into our secret hiding place, cover ourselves and just lay still until the storms of chaos blow over us. Other times, there are moments, even if they're fleeing, that touch and move us so completely, so deeply, that we commit to ourselves during that very moment that they will forever be etched in our minds. Forever and ever. Now, sadly, that rarely happens. Unless you've got the video camera, or the phone camera snapping shot after shot (I don't do this - how do I juggle my arm loads of shit with a camera rolling, exactly?)
That being said; those moments? The precious ones, the ones that touch your heart and send your mind into utter and complete nirvana, your brain pumping Oxytocin all over you until you can practically feel the hairs raise off your whole body. These are the things I want to give thanks for. These shreds of light filled with beauty in my life that fill me with things I NEVER understood were going to be part of life.
I am so very thankful. Everyday. Call it blessed, smiled on, lucky, fortunate. I will use a million words to describe this if I need to. No matter where the path of my life and my experiences will every take me, the bliss I feel from being part of this is humbling and stunning. I will never stop feeling gratitude for it.
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